Last night was the first time I had a screaming baby. Cash would NOT calm down. None of my tricks worked. Not holding, rocking, feeding, changing, singing, leaving alone.... The poor guy was just super tired I think. Jones and Sterling were luckily sleeping most of the time, but they eventually woke up so I had a cranky Cash AND 2 other fussy babies and it was an hour til their scheduled eating time. (If I dont keep them on a schedule it's No Bueno) I guess I should add that Matt was out of town for work so that no one is wondering where the heck he was during all of this. Talk about frustrating. Mostly because I feel so bad when they cry like that.
Well, long story short, everyone got fed an hour early and we were all in bed before 8:30. While I was laying in bed I was looking at pictures in my phone and I came across this one.
It was the first time I ever held Cash. Actually it was the first time I ever held any of my babies. I'll never forget that moment. I had just spent the last few hours wondering if there really was a Goblin King, and wondering if I really said those words what would happen (if you haven't seen Labyrinth I'm sure you're confused) and suddenly, after seeing this picture, it wasn't so bad. It reminded me of when Cash was too little and too weak to make any sound louder than a baby kitten. And when, even with support he was huffing and puffing, working so hard just to breathe. Suddenly I was grateful he has a loud, healthy cry, as crazy as that sounds. I remember praying for the day when he could cry like that.
Gosh I love this kid. Out of the 3 of them he is the one who will just stare at me with his big blue eyes until he falls asleep in my arms. I love it so much.
The hardest part about having pets is eventually having to say "goodbye" to them. Yes, we are "those people" who probably love our dogs a little too much. Blue, or, Bluezer Woozer as I call him, has been with us since the beginning of our little family. Matt got him before we were married, and if you know us, you know how much he's a part of the family.
He's been pretty sick the past few weeks and we found out he had a tumor in his abdomen. We had to put him down about a week ago. It was honestly the saddest thing ever, its been so weird not having him around. He was the best, most loyal, gentle, loving pup ever and we miss him so much.
Not only am I SUPER sad for our other dog Zoey, But it breaks my heart the the kiddos don't get to grow up with him. The few weeks that they were home with him, he loved to be as close as possible.